Sunday, March 18, 2007

wohoo! it has been a long long time even since i start coming back to this webby again, life has been sososo busy, cuz stupid mi made a stupid choice and go to a JC. J2 was super duper stress up will homework which i dun even understand a single shit and need to take hours to finish it. feel extremely stupid. while, i admit that i'm not so working as the rest but i swear i have tried my very best to be hardworking, cuz i'm not born to br a mugger.

back again to my isolated blog to make it alive again so that i can throw all my troubles in it again. it's the best trash bin in the world you know, cuz it wun find you a nag. you can type everytink, anytink, no matter wat, it just take and digest it. many tinks happen in these 2 months, fail my common test, gt a bad result for my chinese As. many disappointing stuff, dun wish to mention them further.

recently, my brother was sent to the boy's home, i'm one of the culprit who sent him there, he trusted mi so much but yet, i actually do this to him, i noe he wun forgive mi for wat i do, i have cheated his feeling and take away his freedom. the moment he was took inside the court, my tears start flowing, he didnt turn back, just walk into the place where he could never imagine, how can i understand the pain that he was feeling, when he knew that all his families have actually planning in the dark to bring him in to a place where it was not suppose to be meant for him? i really duno wat to do...

& 9:23 AM
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Monday, January 08, 2007

a new year and this will be my very first post of this brand new year. i have been sososo busy ever since the school reopen, like everyday, no matter how hard i try, there are still tons of unfinished homework , this really pisses mi off. all these stress that i m having is really crazy, this year is much more tougher than the pervious year, even since the first day of school, my days ae packed wth tutorials and lecture, dun even have the time to breathe. teacher is always there pressing us with work and it really make mi lke a mad woman everyday, struggling to finish my work.
really hate this lifestyle lohx, everyday end school at around 5.30 no time to rest and there i am dealing with all my work again. sianed, how long must i have to endure all these, really hate it lohx. all these stress pile up, higher and higher and today, it really make my day liao. was quite ok for the first half of the day, dan, i was really tired but still have a long way b4 school end, so i have to enure with all my mind, and make mi kinda of moody today, make mi hate all of the tinks around mi, everytink. dun ask mi why, cuz ppl will feel moody every nw and then and they just duno why, just hate it the life they are in. to make myself feel better, i went to buy ice cream for myself, cuz sweet stuffs will make ppl feel better mahx, but, it was of no use. i am stil as moody as b4, at moment, i just feel like crying out loud, let the sound cover all the stress and tears drown all the sorrow...

" just take mi near the sun and keep mi away from the rain, cause now i'm all alone in this cold and freezing hole of sorrow... save mi, i really need you bfore... "

& 6:09 PM
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

come back frm bangkok yesterday midnite, dun ask mi how was it, cuz too many ppl ask liao, abit sian, it was fun but yet nt fun cuz i was having car sick and not quite use to the food when i was there. the best part was, the shopping part, cuz bought alot of tinkz mahx...=)
today suppose to go for movie de, but last min when i was on my way there, my friend ps mi, dan sianed, i took the mrt back home, actually wana go there to eat the kekowei wan, but... hiaz, went back hm all wet with an empty stomach, like very pitiful like that, my mum thought wat happen to mi sia, cold and hungry, so i went to cook maggi mee to eat, and here i am now, eating mee and blog at the same time...
i thought the movie suppose to be a promise b4 i went to bangkok, but it turn out to be an empty promise again and all you noe is just msg a word sorry. i will nv trust promise again cuz it seldom cuz true, or wrost, it nv do. and sorry is just use to make up for the empty promises. to mi, promise is just another word with seven letters with no meaning...

& 2:17 PM
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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

well, will be away for five days for a holiday trip, didnt really wana go, but since my whole family so enthu abt it, i bobian, just tag along with them lohx... actually, dun really like to go overseas cuz i will have seasick, carsick etc, so i dun really like to travel mahx. and most importantly, i will miss all my friends, cuz i sort of everyday see them mahx, dan like a few days didnt see them, will feel very uneasy de... sianz... how am i going to survive through the whole of 5 days? tink i will miss alot of ppl sia, especially you, cuz nv get to chat and msg you mahx, somemore, 17th of dec, cant spend the day with you, mi very sad sia, nvm will make it up when i cum back de... to all my friends, take care, i will miss you de, especailly you...

& 11:12 PM
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Friday, December 08, 2006

while, this week have been super busy, everyday reach hm at around midnight, bath and online a while, 3 plus liao, dan next morning will have to wake up early for the OGL meeting to do the banner, placards and identity. in the afternoon, will have to travel down to the heartware office and go to different locations and sell the charity bears, stand around the whole dae, make my feet ache like hell, blah blah, and again when i reach hm, midnite liao.

& 12:50 AM
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Monday, December 04, 2006

actually today was quite a fruitful dae and when i reach hm, i was happy wanting to blog abt wat happy during the OGL camp and the selling of bears today. but gt to read her blog, her entry is abt us, she is jealous, full of regrets and cant forget abt him, saying we are not compatable and so on, all these spoil my mood and make mi cry for for hours while tinking, so, i am the third party now? am i in the wrong? i duno wat to do, have the very sick feeling, my heart sinks to the bottom, no strenght to tink anymore. told him the other dae when we met her, but he dun believe mi, sae i was tinking too much, told him i can sense it, but he dun believe, but now, it is true. my feelings are rite, so does it mean that my feelings of him still caring abt her is oso rite? i duno, but tink of this make my tears rolling down again, dun wana tink abt this anymore, but all the tinks she blog keep cuming back, so sick and tired, so afraid, dun tink my heart can feel anymore, dun wan my mind to think but i cant, can someone just save mi frm this? help! tink i will be drowning in her words soon... he will nv know how i feel when i'm blogging this, so lost, so down, so afraid.
tink i should go back to what i am suppose to blog, to let my mind go away from her blog, into my own memories again. OGL camp! ok blog abt OGL camp, went for the camp on thurs with an uneasy feeling, cuz duno any girl frm my OG, only noe yh and sm, dun tink they can accompany mi cuz we will be living in different bunks and both of them have their own friends too, but still go to the camp since is i initiate for the camp. went to sch early in the morning with barly 3 hours of sleep, was a little late but nv get scloding, heng ar, cuz alot of ppl oso late mahx. saw sh, and have a relieve feeling, cuz she was in the same OG but she has her friends too, but nvm, i am thick skin enough to stick to them like a glue when the ask us to go to our bunk and sm was alone cuz tiger beer nv turn up fpr the camp, noe he will be lonly so i ask yh to accompany him, but still, later in the dae, everytime i saw sm, i can feel the sianess on his face, try my best to talk to him, but it is always not possible, plead yh again to pei sm, but still dun see them always together, hiaz, oso duno wat to do liao. after some boring stuff and games, it was nite time already, haha, gt jg to pei mi sleep in the nites, cuz dun really clique with sh's frenz so i was happy that in the nites, i can sleep with someone i'm more familar with. although i was quite tired, but the floor was so hard that it was quite difficult for mi to sleep, the cold breeze at nite oso awoken mi at nite, wat a nite sia, was awoken a few times.
the 2nd dae went past quite fast cuz it was all games and stuff, and we are oso busy preparing the performance for the special nites, so dun have much time to feel lonely too, but i will still notice sm alone in a corner with two very quiet guys and 3 of them were always in a corner. feeling very guity and uneasy, so i went to talk to him at times, oso, i plead yh again to pei sm, he always sae ok but like not doing so leh, everytime run here and there and talk to other ppl but nvm lah,. noe he gt try lah, sm dun really talk to new friends de, so it is oso very hard for yh. hiaz, really dun like sm to be alone, rather that it was mi being lonely, but maybe its becuz i'm quite talkative, i can get into different clicks easliy, tink i have conversations with everyone in my OG bahx, hiaz, maybe next time should teach sm how to make friends. the nite came very fast, and i actually sand lao shu ai da mi in front of all the OGL during our performance, tink it was really stupid but since, gt 4 other ppl pei mi so it was ok lah. sleep with jg again at nite, but this time, in her bunk, with desiree they all, although i was super wore out for the 2nd dae, but talk to them till 3am in the morning, we were gossiping like nobody's business and i have enjoy that moment, tink it was the best time i have in the camp bahx.
time files, and it was the 3rd dae liao, nth much and we ended our camp at around 11 plus, went out with jh they all for a big feast cuz the food provided during the camp were really sux, white bread during breakfast with cold hard rice during lunch and dinner. after tat, went hm to shit first before i went singing with jh they all agin, cuz i have stored the shit in my stomach during the camp mahx, so cant really tahan after pieces of pizza have thrown into my stomach. oh yar, i almost forgot, my phone was low batt when i go to the camp lah, so i cant really use it and it was like so sian lohx, thought i didnt charge it properly, but when i came back from the camp and charge it for one whole dae, the batt is still low, so i tink my phone poilt liao, tink i'm going to get a new phone soon bahx, sianz, need to waste monet again sia, hiaz... went to sell bears today, was reallt tired but still very enthu cuz i was the overall in charge, manage to sell twenty over bears and i thought it was quite good for a start liao, hmm dan after that during the second shift was abit slack cuz desiree took over mi and i was quite shag after standing for the whole afternoon, so didnt really do any work. went back home with my whole back aching, thought of coming online to relax, but... hiaz, read her blog make mi even wrost, aiya, dun talk abt it anymore le, only will make mi moody nia, tink i end off here back, need to go and catch some sleep le, but tink will not sleep quite well bahx...
P.S: sm, sorry that i sort of ps you during the camp, tried my best to pei you but dun really have the chance, sorry...

& 1:18 AM
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY! yes, today iz mi, siokie aka sharon's big day, finally, i'm 17 liao, haha but this year didnt celebrate my bdae at the chalet, rmb for the past few years, i have always celebrated my bdae during our class chalet and there were lots of ppl and fun, this year although there is no chalet, not much ppl but at least, i'm celebrating my bdae with my good firends, and i'm so glad that actually there is quite a number of ppl that rmb my bdae, that means, gt a lot of ppl that care abt mi leh, so touching... i hereby thanx all my friends who rmb my bdae, sent mi msg and testi, especially those who accompany mi the whole day today, THANX LOTS!

meet at 11am in the morning, i was late as usual but not as late as some of them, when for a movie at cathay, not very nice, didnt really get the whole pt of the show, but nvm lah, gt my friends pei mi, any movie also nice to watch wan. after that, didnt really noe wat to do sia, walking aimlessly around just to pass time, jh bought a slipper and then the rest of the time we just walk around, go arcade and walk around again, sian sia, really cant find anytink interesting to do, singapore is really too small liao, all the tinks like do before like that. wait for jeff to meet us, dan we went to hougang for pool, mi play for one round with sm, and i win, haha, but its not i good lah, is he too noob liao=p. after tat, went for dinner and tada, i'm home, as i walk quite long today, quite tired liao, so i should keep this entry short and sweet, anyway, thanx again to all my friends, love yar!=)

& 11:51 PM
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